Sigh.

I feel oddly depressed.

Well, I feel depressed almost all the time (*cough* bipolar *cough*), but this one's different.

One reason why I'm depressed is because I've been listening to this song for days. Seriously. I don't know why, but this song's stirring something inside the depths of my soul (*insert a shitty and corny speech on drama and romance here*).

And the opening part where Jeremy makes a short monologue about long distance relationships and whatnot? Bloody everlasting hell. Kill me. Kill me now.

Another reason is because I miss my parents terribly. They visited me this morning in my dormitory, but they only stayed for about thirty minutes, which was not enough time. I even forgot to hug my daddy when he said goodbye. Also, I forgot to ask him to give me back my birthday money so I could buy the pretty, leather bound Pride and Prejudice book that I nearly drooled on at the book store.

And another reason (really, I could go on and on why I'm depressed but I'll end with this one), which I think is by far the most serious one, is that I'm facing this dilemma of crush-turned-to-like-turned-to-love on this one guy, and I don't know what to do about it. I've been mulling over it for nigh a week and it's already starting to drive me nuts; you only have to look at my former jet black hair turned bright red to know. I'd tell you the whole story, but I'm afraid that 1) you'd only dismiss my situation as teenage silliness sdklfhsakjdgfjs it's not~ 2) someone both the guy and I know might be reading this and expose this abomination to the entire world, or worse, 3) the guy himself might find out that I'm writing about him and poof, friendship over. Well he's not exactly my friend, merely an acquaintance, but whatever. You catch the drift.

You're probably saying, Oh, gimme a break, Marie! OKAY THEN. FINE. *puts on irritated mother face*

Anyway, I just posted this here hoping I'd somehow think of a way to end this stupid drama, but I guess it didn't work. If anything though, it did make my mood a tad lighter than before I wrote this.

*shrug*

If you will excuse me, my tea is done brewing. :)